Maxwell Kirsch
and his husband Samuel Kirsch are
Adults. Their daughters Felicitas (Liss)
Kirsch, Caritas (Cari) Kirsch,
and Iustitia (Izzy) Kirsch are Teens.
* * *
Even after all these years and three teenage daughters,
Samuel and Maxwell Kirsch were still in love enough to start kissing in the
middle of the sidewalk, blocking the path of anyone who might try to walk by.
Their partnership just… worked. Maxwell had an undemanding job that left him
plenty of time to pursue his many hobbies and still have time left over for
Samuel, while Samuel stayed home, took care of the girls, and enjoyed being
wooed and pampered by his husband. And if Maxwell sometimes wished Samuel would
contribute financially a little more now that the kids were older, and if
Samuel wished Maxwell’s hobbies left him more time to take Samuel on dates and
maybe push for a promotion so they could buy some nicer furniture, well,
nothing was perfect.
And now that the girls were older and could mostly take care
of themselves, that left Samuel and Maxwell a lot more time to spend together.
And while Samuel sometimes did grow wistful that they hadn’t
actually been out on a proper date in years, the only bad times in Maxwell’s
life right now were when Liam Brennan came over for the weekly chess nights he
hosted. He had no idea why Liam had taken such an instant dislike to him. It
seemed like from the first day they met, Liam had had it in for him. At first
Maxwell had tried to be friendly; now he didn’t even bother. He didn’t have it
in him to be nice to Liam anymore, not when Liam spent half the time shooting
barbed insults this way and the other half bragging about whatever new and
expensive item he had bought recently.
He took a quiet pleasure in the fact that the latter had
grown less and less frequent ever since Liam had lost his job. He wasn’t normally one to wish
bad fortune on others, but if anyone deserved it, it was Liam.
The girls had gotten used to answering questions. “Yes, we
do look a lot like our parents. No, it’s not an amazing coincidence, we’re not
adopted, one of our dads is transgender.” “No, Izzy doesn’t stand for Isabel,
it stands for Iustitia. Yes, I know what it means. No, I don’t know why my
parents gave me a name like that. No, I
don’t think they hate me.”
Liss had big plans for her life. She was going to be an
artist… or a programmer… or both at once. Or maybe she would try a career in
business. In any case, it had to be something that paid well, so she could
start living a life of luxury. And something interesting enough that she
wouldn’t get bored. In any case, she knew that whatever she ended up doing, she
would have to get good grades in order to do it. So she spent as much time
studying as she had to in order to get her grades up, even if it meant spending
less time with her best friend Dmitri Fish.
Dmitri was being weird lately anyway. He was acting like he
had a thing for her, which she supposed wouldn’t be bad exactly, and she had to
admit he wasn’t bad-looking, but the thing was, she liked their friendship the
way it was. She didn’t want things getting weird between them, and Dmitri
seemed determined to make it weird. So homework made a good excuse not to go over
and see him.
Cari had started spending a lot more time on her homework,
too, but only because Liss was. She would much rather have been playing soccer,
but she couldn’t let any of her siblings start looking better in their parents’
eyes than her. It was useful to know where you stood with people, and never
good to let anyone else be more trusted than you.
Samuel didn’t know their motives; he was just happy to see
his girls studying together. It made him feel warm and fuzzy inside.
Izzy was another story.
She cared about her family, and always tried to bring
Maxwell out of the bad mood Liam got him into. She cared about her teddy bear,
which she still hadn’t gotten rid of even though her sisters both teased her
for it. She cared about world peace. What she didn’t care about was school.
Izzy was full of all this energy these days, and she didn’t know what to do with it. She felt
restless, stuck, in a way that wasn’t just about being the youngest in a house
full of sisters. She wanted to do something that mattered. She wanted to change
the world. And instead she went to high school every day and came home and
watched TV.
Cari’s obvious sucking up drove her crazier by the day.
It was clear to her that nothing her sister said was sincere. But whenever she
called her on it, Cari would, of course, deny everything – which just made Izzy
more furious, although that hot honest rush of emotion was strangely satisfying
in its own way.
But for the most part, despite their differences, the Kirsch
family was comfortably happy. Every night they hung out around the dining table
and shared stories about their day while people ate if they felt like it and
did homework unless they were Izzy.
On weekend mornings they would all sit in the living room
together in their pajamas, eat scrambled eggs, and watch TV.
It was kind of ridiculously wholesome, and even though Izzy
complained, she secretly liked it that way.
Izzy had a tiny bit of a crush on Dmitri Fish, although she
would never admit it to anyone. It wasn’t like she really expected it to go
anywhere – she knew Dmitri and Liss would end up together in the end. Even if
Liss was pretending not to know what she wanted yet, it was obvious how things
were going to turn out. But she couldn’t just stop herself from noticing him.
Liss didn’t have much time these days to think about
romance. In addition to trying to improve her grades at school, there was her
art to consider. She wanted to be an artist when she grew up, at least she thought she did, but her paintings… well, they just weren’t
very good. Her dads told her they were fine, but she knew they were just being
kind. Everything she painted looked something a five-year-old had put together
with fingerpaints. She had given up asking her dads for private lessons – she knew
they couldn’t afford it. So she kept cranking out bad painting after bad
painting, trying to fix her mistakes, hoping that eventually she would start
improving.
Cari’s main concern, aside from getting her daily workouts
in, was keeping up with her sisters. Liss always had things to talk about – it was
like her mind was constantly whirring at a million miles an hour. Izzy was obnoxiously
helpful for someone as contrarian as she seemed, always offering to help out
around the house. It felt like a full-time job sometimes, making sure she was
as engaging as Liss and as helpful as Izzy.
Sometimes Cari felt like she was missing something, some
essential spark that her sisters both seemed to have. Whatever it was that made
Liss genuinely enthusiastic about school and her art and everything else,
whatever it was that made Izzy sincerely want to help everyone out all the
time, she didn’t have it. Sometimes she got the sense that she had been
pretending all her life. The only thing that really made her feel alive, that
made her feel like she wasn’t pretending, was control. She liked knowing she
could make someone react exactly the way she wanted them to react, and do
whatever she wanted them to do.
But she was so good at faking that sometimes she forgot she
was doing it.
Lately, though, it was getting harder and harder with Izzy.
Izzy just got on her nerves – her incessant sincerity, the way everything Cari
had to work so hard for came so naturally to her. So Cari would bait her
intentionally, and then Izzy would get mad, and then the whole situation would
go spiraling out of control. It made Cari uneasy when people were mad at her. It
meant they were more likely to see through her.
Maxwell and Samuel weren’t sure what to do about the growing
rivalry between the two. Sure, the girls had had their spats before – it was
part of raising three kids – but this seemed different somehow. It felt like it
ran deeper, and would be harder to solve.
Liss often tried to mediate, but it usually didn’t help. She
found herself spending more and more time with her easel, or at Dmitri’s house.
The growing stress at home was enough to make Liss start to
reconsider her thoughts about romance. She really needed a distraction, and
Dmitri was awfully comforting to have around. But she didn’t want to use him
just to distract herself from her warring siblings; he was too important to her
for that. So for now, they stayed just friends.
After talking between themselves, Maxwell and Samuel called
a family meeting to help Cari and Izzy work things out. They both smiled and
apologized and promised to try harder, and Samuel – optimist that he was –
completely believed them, but Maxwell found himself wondering whether it would
really stick.
Izzy decided that if she was going to try to stop letting
Cari bait her, she was going to need some sort of distraction, an outlet for
her excess energy. Liss had talked to her about the temptation to use Dmitri as
a distraction, so Izzy decided to take her big sister’s advice – or at least
she was calling it advice – and find a boyfriend. She asked Cornelius, a boy
from school, out on a date to the Blue Velvet. She had no idea whether he was
her type or not. To be honest, she didn’t really care. That wasn’t the point.
The point was to do something to quiet her mind down for a while.
And for that, Cornelius worked very well.





















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